I, like many others have found it hard to try and sum up what 2020 has meant for me. There are more emotions than I care to recognise when closing the lid on this ginormous pile of steaming shit that called itself 2020. My life pre-pandemic was, I thought, everything I wanted. January 2020, I … Continue reading Goodbye 2020

If you don't know about A, you can catch up here Friends with Benefits: My Experience – Part One It was Sunday 15th December. I woke up around 2am. It was the morning after my work christmas party and I was in a hotel, my best friend asleep next to me. I had been quite poorly … Continue reading FWB – Hello again…..

My dad was an alcoholic. I never saw it until I was about 17 years old, and I had moved in with him. He had gone from this amazing, loud, funny, confident man, to a shell of himself. A man who was viscious and verbally abusive to those closest to him. A man who used … Continue reading The Alcohol Abuser – Part 1

"Watch it, you idiot" - I was soaked. "Oh get lost babe, it's just a drink" - He was so cocky. "Excuse me, I think you had better apologise to the lady and go and buy her another drink" I was 20. I was in a bar in my local town, and a moron had … Continue reading The Older Man

First published July 2019. That phrase....... "It's ok not to be ok". My question though, is..... is it? Can you be honest about your feelings without the fear of judgement or criticism? Can you say things without people thinking 'oh so that explains a lot'. Working in HR and studying HR for the past 4 … Continue reading Is it ok not to be ok?

The control I feel, looking down at his beautiful arse, is overwhelming. I know how much he has wanted this, and for how long, and I suddenly feel some pressure to ensure this experience is impeccable for him. I want to do a final check to ensure he is comfortable and happy for me to … Continue reading The Fantasy – Reigning Supreme

No. A number of similar meanings. No indeed. Absolutely not. Most certainly not. Of course not. A word that stems from old english. A word that has been used for hundreds of years. Why, then, is it so hard for people to understand the meaning of those two simple letters? People have every right to … Continue reading When did No, stop meaning No?

I. AM. READY. He is the only person I trust to take control of me. I know he will take great care, and he won't push me past where I am comfortable. The sexual connection with him is greater than that of any other man I have slept with, I need his body, his hands, … Continue reading The Fantasy – Part Deux

The cold wind bit against my flushed cheeks as my heels clicked on the pavement. My hair was blowing everywhere and I lifted my hand to try and keep it out of my eyes, even though I knew the path to where I was going like the back of my hand. As I got closer … Continue reading The Fantasy

Being single in 2019. As a 34 year old woman, I 'SHOULD' feel independent, empowered, sassy etc, shouldn't I? Being single 'doesn't define me'. Except it does. Even without people realising, they are pigeonholing me or even worse, pitying me because of my romantic situation, or to be more blatant, lack of one. Now, I … Continue reading Singledom – My Views