My dad was an alcoholic. I never saw it until I was about 17 years old, and I had moved in with him. He had gone from this amazing, loud, funny, confident man, to a shell of himself. A man who was viscious and verbally abusive to those closest to him. A man who used … Continue reading The Alcohol Abuser – Part 1

"Watch it, you idiot" - I was soaked. "Oh get lost babe, it's just a drink" - He was so cocky. "Excuse me, I think you had better apologise to the lady and go and buy her another drink" I was 20. I was in a bar in my local town, and a moron had … Continue reading The Older Man

No. A number of similar meanings. No indeed. Absolutely not. Most certainly not. Of course not. A word that stems from old english. A word that has been used for hundreds of years. Why, then, is it so hard for people to understand the meaning of those two simple letters? People have every right to … Continue reading When did No, stop meaning No?

I. AM. READY. He is the only person I trust to take control of me. I know he will take great care, and he won't push me past where I am comfortable. The sexual connection with him is greater than that of any other man I have slept with, I need his body, his hands, … Continue reading The Fantasy – Part Deux

The cold wind bit against my flushed cheeks as my heels clicked on the pavement. My hair was blowing everywhere and I lifted my hand to try and keep it out of my eyes, even though I knew the path to where I was going like the back of my hand. As I got closer … Continue reading The Fantasy

So, if you've read my last post you will know that I currently feel like I'm being carried by Thor himself, although I fear he may break his back because I've consumed about 10 sacks of potatoes in the month preceding this meeting. The shower is on - oh my, are we going under it? … Continue reading Mr 911 – My first true ghosting

There are times in our lives, and I'm sure I speak for a lot of people here, where a situation occurs and it knocks you so far off of your feet that at times, you aren't sure how to process it, let alone deal with your own feelings around it. This blog post is dedicated … Continue reading Mr 911

If you haven't read Part 1, you can find it here The Gaslighter – Part 1 I could not believe what I was seeing. I sent the message to my best friend immediately and she had a few choice words to say, I mean who can blame her right? She had a right to be … Continue reading The Gaslighter – Part 2

Definition: Gaslighting is a specific kind of emotional abuse designed to make the victim doubt their own perceptions, memory, and reality. And yes, it is a very cruel and sadistic thing to do to someone you purport to love, who trusts you. This is the story of P. It has taken me 2 days to … Continue reading The Gaslighter – Part 1

I ignored the 'Did you get home safely?' message.... I wasn't ready to talk. I sleep, intermittently. When I wake, no other message. Do I text? No. I'm fucking mad at him. I need time to decide how I'm going to deal with this. Find out why in Friends with Benefits – The Finale (or … Continue reading FWB….It broke me